My name is Lothunglo Mozhui. I lived in Delhi since I was a little girl, and in 2013, my family decided to move back to Nagaland (the land of my birth). But in 2014, I became paralysed, and I am paralysed to date.
Dimapur is home now, and God has given me this convenient and graceful city as a home. It is close to many hospitals, and I have doctors who are just a phone call away. But the care I receive from my family is just so incredible. My parents truly are my doctors, and they are the best of the lot. They feed me, bathe me, clothe me, and take care of my every need. Today, I am in awe that I have a special place to call “my home.” The place where I contemplate my life, where I can study the Bible, where I can sing a song of praise to Christ, where I can write short poems, and I can be myself before God.
God is good. God is merciful. God is my Healer. And I trust HIM!
I
Everyone has a breaking point.
And blessed are those who are broken,
for in their brokenness, they realize things
which would otherwise
go unrealized,
which would otherwise
slip by unnoticed.
God will help us when we feel utterly hopeless.
He will show the way.
He will take away the broken things from us
and He will turn them into
marvelous wonders!
My God makes all the flawed stuff into an exceptional design.
II
Sometimes, I wish that today was yesterday,
and I could've and would've
done things differently,
avoided all the
stupid mistakes.
But I thank God for tomorrow,
It's another chance, another go at life.
And sometimes, I wish that it was yesterday
because yesterday was good.
And I thank God for today,
for giving me new hope and strength for tomorrow.
III
I would always wonder from where I was getting the strength,
energy and courage to face and, ultimately,
overcome the everyday challenges and battles of this rough patch.
Then I realised that the prayers,
wishes, and hope of my family and friends
were backing and shielding me all along!
I am really nothing on my own!
I want to start this new year by acknowledging
all those who constantly keep me
in thoughts and prayers (countless number of people),
share a word of encouragement
(countless, again!),
go out of their way to show love and concern,
make sure that I don't run out of reads and the hahas,
push me beyond the incorrect limits that I've set for myself.
So, with their faith added to mine, I am stronger!!!
I do admit that there are times of sheer frustration,
depression, anger, and self-pity.
But because of the grace of God and their support,
I'm never down in the pits for long,
but quickly pushed back up
again to stand firm.
All I can do is thank you, delightful people!
You really, really are my backbone!
God bless you
and make your
deepest and hidden desires
come to pass.
